Hey Kawazuki,
You are alive, you have all your body parts!!!...
Then, just do it. Get your riding gear again and ride. Instead of spending the time asking your sefl why, why me, how it happened, etc, etc; think how to use that experience in your benefit... Fear is natural of humans.
Riding a bike is in your soul, in your blood, so do it my friend.
Last March 12th´05 a car hitted me on behind. I was starting moving on a green light, and sudenly, it hitted me and send me against a concrete wall 3ft tall x 6ft wide x 1 ft thick. I broke my two femur, left knee, right side tibia with 2 exposed fractures on it, also my left shoulder was broken and two fingers of my right hand. The car run away!!!... My baby BMW R1100S was destroyed. Thanks to my FULL gear, specially the helmet, I´m alive...
My dreams, my bike, my health, my life were destroyed. I spent a month at the hospital, and another moth on a bed. I was in PAIN all the time and depending on my family for EVERYTHING...
I have in bone titanium nails and screws in different parts of my body. and now I am recovering. I´m walking again with the temporarily help of a cane and let me tell you something, I WANT TO RIDE AGAIN. I WON´T QUIT. The accident have made some changes on me. I see life better and that is why I will enjoy it riding.
I only be more careful when I ride in town, I´ll watch more often my mirrors. I will use an aftermarket muffler for my new bike, because most of the times, bike´s Noise saves lifes.
Best Grettings.
Al Romo
MEXICO